i haven't been able to update on my accounts lately...and there's plenty of shit reasons to go with that...:

i have been pounding through a whole series of mishaps this month, and as i consider one problem as solved, another problem appears before i can do anything more about the first one.

most people close to me knows that my mother and i aren't exactly "best-friends", and she's recently been acting like a nightmare to me and people around me... i've been trying to ignore her calls, her voice, even her whole existance by being out of her reach at all suitable times. (and of course) that causes more damage than good. i'm ill-tempered, and i don't seem to focus too well on my tasks. i wish we could settle it once and leave the rest behind...

i've finally found a person i can rely both my health and heart to: even though it wont last forever, i'm willing to risk my feelings once again for this special individual. i'll give relationships another shot, and i'm going to try my best to maintaine the values our time together will bring us in the nearest future.

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xxx amy n. (the monotone clown amongst angst-generation).